When I lost my dad, it was the worst thing yet to happen in my life.  I went through months of grieving, anger being the strongest emotional reaction to the feeling of loss I had.  I spent many hours dealing with healing, and in that time, I had to learn again why I believed what I believed, as for a while, I couldn't believe in anything!

The hardest period of my life was living without believing, feeling so much pain and anger with God for taking my dad away, that I had trouble releasing that...
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The best part of life is having choices whereby we can make the most of our dreams.  The worst part of life is having so many choices whereby we can become lost in all the confusing options we encounter trying to make our dreams come to fruition!  I don't know how we get into stages of life with virtually no sense direction, but we do sometimes.  We can honestly be so overwhelmed with our own freedom, so frightened by the sense of absolute emptiness in our life, that the very knowledge of reb...
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Life is not easy . . we reach stages in our lives when things happen which we simply do not understand, nor have answers for, which test our self-confidence or take hostage our self-esteem.  We feel challenged and pinned up against a wall, immovable and often incapable of progress.  When in these states, we often feel completely out of control, unworthy and stressed to a high level.  It might be a personal problem with a close associate or loved one; it might be from health issues we seemingl...
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Some days our cares rain down on us like a torrent . . they pool at first, we hardly notice.  Suddenly, we realize we've been getting our feet wet, we're not comfortable anymore.  The puddles amass as our cares compound, we can no longer find a way to shelter ourselves from the storms.  They come too frequently, they're too intense, we are soaking in troubles, uncomfortable and wishing for a day when we are carefree again, but it seems so far off now!

Wouldn't it be nice if instead of drowning...
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I've not written for a while, not for lack of thought, but rather for an accidental "drought" of spirit!  I was besieged by a situation which was taking my total energy to concentrate upon the best way to manuever through, around, or over it. 

We all have times like that in our lives, when something more than a speedbump, but rather a major mountain of a problem comes along, one which takes our energy, our joy, our very peace if we let it.  I have spent the last month considering how to keep ...
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Life is a process, you can dream about your whole life, plan it out in minute detail even, following your own set course, up until the time that life happens for real.  When life intrudes on how we are living, we must make a detour, we must set our course to new geographical coordinates, and find a new direction suitable for our amended goals.  All of us are learning as we go, we are taking our cues from what happens to us as we proceed, and when we are confronted by things which we must corr...
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You know, you can have your whole way known, your whole life pointed in certain directions, but things can happen which change those courses without your permission as it were.  Suddenly, your pathway isn't the familiar one you were just traveling.  You are pushed into an area of discomfort and fear, all the way around you is cast with a pall of something foreign to you.  

What do you do when you don't recognize your way?  How do you know what to do and how to proceed?  I've found those places...
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Right now in my life, I'm like an unfinished masterpiece.  I was reminded today when looking at the infant niece of a friend, who is ill and facing heart surgery, that life's brevity is enough inspiration to constantly let yourself be shaped and formed!  I whine too much.  I moan and complain over such silly things.  I know nothing of pain, nor enduring it, in comparison to that of a tiny little 2-month old baby fighting for hers!

When God gives you challenges, it should automatically make you...
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I'll be frank here, dreaming is always in competition with my more practical side, the realistic side which screams, "Don't you open up your heart to those foolish dreams, you're just asking for trouble!"  I've admittedly been broken down, busted apart and found myself wondering why I ever dared to dream when they pan out and fall to pieces.  I've always gotten back up, stepped back into my "fantasy", and hoped all over again.  The true nature of a positive thinker is optimism, but also the v...
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When I was young, there was only one reality for me.  I was only interested in being a wife and a mother.  Looking back, all the things I did, all the activities I practiced, my play, my favorite times, my significance, all was vested in that journey.  Lo and behold, the two things of significance I have not done in my lifetime are those very things which I spent my childhood playtime and chore time in preparation.  I knew how to cook, bake, clean house, sew and I observed with admiring eyes,...
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